I think I’ve realized why all of my recent news hasn’t been as difficult as I assumed it would be.\u00a0 (Not that I would have thought in a million years I’d have breast cancer at age 34, or that my baby would have been that miniscule percentage of those having Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, and Epilepsy for that matter.)\u00a0 I even asked Mel if he thought I was being aloof.\u00a0 Shouldn’t I be crying more?\u00a0 Shouldn’t I be more upset?<\/p>\n
It all makes sense to me now.\u00a0 When I found out about Mary Clare’s special heart, Mel and I were in a complete state of shock.\u00a0 We walked around for months in a fog barely knowing how to even pronounce Hypoplastic.\u00a0 We were completely lost. Thankfully, she was still perfect and safe in my belly.\u00a0 He and I had time to re-group and learn how to be parents of a medically fragile child before<\/em> she was born.\u00a0 <\/em><\/p>\n Being told my baby has half of a heart was something that changed me forever.\u00a0 That<\/em> was hard.\u00a0 That <\/em>was excruciating.\u00a0 I remember many times sitting in the bath tub staring down at my round belly just asking God to keep her in me forever.\u00a0 I knew she was safe and happy there.\u00a0 I was not ready watch her in pain, fighting for survival.<\/p>\n I’m a mom.\u00a0 Mom’s hurt for their babies.\u00a0 I know I’m certainly not the first to say, “If I could take the pain and hurt from my child, I’d do it in a heartbeat. Let it be me.”\u00a0 Moms do that.\u00a0 I’ve lived that.\u00a0 I live it everyday.<\/p>\n This is me I’m talking about now.\u00a0 My focus is on getting myself well so I can continue to be Mary Clare’s biggest fan.<\/p>\n Comparatively speaking, this, my friends, (and by this<\/em> I mean being told<\/em> of my cancer) is a walk in the park that will not keep me down.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I think I’ve realized why all of my recent news hasn’t been as difficult as I assumed it would be.\u00a0 (Not that I would have thought in a million years I’d have breast cancer at age 34, or that my baby would have been that miniscule percentage of those having Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, and […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6366","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6366","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6366"}],"version-history":[{"count":17,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6366\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6384,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6366\/revisions\/6384"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6366"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6366"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6366"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}