a.m. This morning, I woke up in tears.\u00a0 I think the emotional impact of what is happening to me has hit.\u00a0 Mel actually woke up first and started getting the girls together.\u00a0 (This has never happened.\u00a0 I’m always the one hitting the floor full steam ahead while asking him a thousand times to get up-I sing, I joke, then<\/em> I fuss.)\u00a0 His thoughtfulness this morning was truly amazing.\u00a0 McCanless noticed that I was teary, and it broke my heart to see her worry about me.\u00a0 Mary Clare was Mary Clare, fussing about what she did not want to wear, how she insisted her hair look, refusing to potty, etc.\u00a0 She didn’t notice a thing.<\/p>\n As the girls team sat together on my bed, I brushed their hair and my tears poured. I want to take them to school, to dance afterwards, to Wednesday night church.\u00a0 My heart aches to do these things, but my body is not allowing me to do anything but move slowly around my house.\u00a0 Today, I feel trapped. Emotionally and physically.\u00a0 I’ve taken my pain meds, because I just ache in my shoulders, neck and head.\u00a0 I tried to brush my teeth and the toothpaste tasted like thick sugar gum.\u00a0 Coffee is about the only thing that somewhat seems normal today.\u00a0 I’m hoping after a nap I’ll muster up the energy for a quick walk.\u00a0 I always enjoy being outside.<\/p>\n p.m. Today was a long day, but guess what? I made it.\u00a0 My body ached some, but what hurt most today was the the cold hard realization that this is going to be a tough road. One that I’ve been fighting tooth and nail.\u00a0 It’s hard to admit that my heartaches far outweighed my body aches today.\u00a0 I’m not one to sit and allow things to pass along, so it’s excruciating to just be and allow all of this to happen.\u00a0 Maybe this is God’s way of telling me to chill out and just be.\u00a0 I need not worry about trivial matters.<\/p>\n Today, was a great lesson for me.\u00a0 As soon as I journaled I was having a rough morning, my phone started ringing, friends stopped by and blessing after blessing flowed my way.\u00a0 I relished in each and every one of them.\u00a0 I am surrounded.<\/p>\n \n Overall Day 3<\/strong>:\u00a0 Not much nausea-just a pit of stomach ick.\u00a0 Took one nausea med this morning.\u00a0 Advil and Claritin at night.\u00a0 Nothing tastes the same.\u00a0 Headache, upper back, neck and shoulder aches. Stiff upper body.\u00a0 I took a nap with Mary Clare around 2:30-4, but otherwise kept up most of the day. Brief outside ventures to get fresh air.\u00a0 Doable.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" September 14-Day 3 a.m. This morning, I woke up in tears.\u00a0 I think the emotional impact of what is happening to me has hit.\u00a0 Mel actually woke up first and started getting the girls together.\u00a0 (This has never happened.\u00a0 I’m always the one hitting the floor full steam ahead while asking him a thousand times […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6657","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6657","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6657"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6657\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6663,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6657\/revisions\/6663"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6657"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6657"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6657"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}