I’ve realized a few things today.\u00a0 Like hair, aches and fatigue, moments in time are temporary.\u00a0 This morning, as crazy as it sounds, I cried when I shampooed my long hair for the last time.\u00a0 Then I cried when Mel laughed at me for being melodramatic.<\/p>\n
“You’ll still have hair to wash tomorrow.”<\/p>\n
He truly wasn’t insensitive.\u00a0 Like I’ve said before, we make each other laugh.\u00a0 It’s what we do.\u00a0 Today, temporarily<\/em>, I forgot that.\u00a0 After my hair appointment was all said and done,\u00a0 and every lady in The Plaza (and Mel) ohh’d and ahh’d over my short new do, I realized it wasn’t such a big deal.\u00a0 It’s only hair.\u00a0 And I kinda like it.\u00a0 Truly, the anticipation of my hair cut was more than the actual cut itself.\u00a0 It’s not my favorite do, but it will do.\u00a0 (For a few weeks at least.)\u00a0 I’ve always wanted to try a short cut.\u00a0 What an opportunity?\u00a0 How many people can temporarily<\/em> try out a new hair style?\u00a0 Me.\u00a0 It was more of a rite of passage, anyway.<\/p>\n I have also realized today that no matter what I want my body to do, it will tell me what it needs and follow suit.\u00a0 I so wanted to have lunch with Mel and spend a bit of time with him today.\u00a0 We walked into a restaurant and immediately the music was too loud.\u00a0 I was dizzy.\u00a0 I was tired.\u00a0 I was so exhausted at that very moment, I just had to go back to the car.\u00a0 When he came back with our to-go boxes, I cried.\u00a0 I didn’t even make it to Target.\u00a0 Target!\u00a0 Never have I ever given up such an opportunity.\u00a0 I so could have milked it with Mel.\u00a0 Poor pitiful me, having to cut my hair and feeling low would have been the golden ticket at Target today.\u00a0 I couldn’t even muster up the energy to keep my chair upright.<\/p>\n This is only temporary.\u00a0 My hair is short.\u00a0 My hair will fall out.\u00a0 I will feel good.\u00a0 I will feel bad.\u00a0 Temporarily.\u00a0 I was hoping my hip aches would end yesterday, yet they continue on.\u00a0 Those aren’t quite as temporary as I had hoped.<\/p>\n Today my friends cried with me when I shared with them that I was cutting my hair.\u00a0 We cried, then we laughed at how ludicrous that is.\u00a0 Ash even sent photos of me with various bad hair from the decades.\u00a0 Temporarily horrid styles.<\/p>\n Overall Day 5<\/strong> My hair is now short, thanks to my own choice, not chemo.\u00a0 I’m anxiously awaiting the arrival of my girls, they have yet to see me today. “Bubba” (my dad-nickname given by McCanless) shaved his own head.\u00a0 His own choice, much to my mother’s dismay.\u00a0 Today is the first cool day of fall.\u00a0 My neck feels it for the first time, ever.\u00a0 My hips ache, my ribs ache. I have slight shortness of breath.\u00a0 Little nausea. No nausea meds!\u00a0 Advil for pain.\u00a0 Short bursts of energy, followed by exhaustion.\u00a0 Slowly coming to terms that my body is tired and needs to heal.\u00a0 Quickly coming to terms that this is temporary.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" September 16-Day 5 I’ve realized a few things today.\u00a0 Like hair, aches and fatigue, moments in time are temporary.\u00a0 This morning, as crazy as it sounds, I cried when I shampooed my long hair for the last time.\u00a0 Then I cried when Mel laughed at me for being melodramatic. “You’ll still have hair to wash […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6670","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6670","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6670"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6670\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6675,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6670\/revisions\/6675"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6670"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6670"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.babypennington.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6670"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}