I’m on week 3 before my 5th treatment.\u00a0 I can’t believe it.\u00a0 I’m almost at the finish line.\u00a0 This week is always tough because it’s a countdown to week 1, which has begun to get pretty bad.\u00a0 Doable, but not something I ever want to go through again.\u00a0 Here are a few things going on right now.<\/p>\n
-My fingernails are always sore.\u00a0 They are bruised.\u00a0 They have pink\/purple splotches on the center of each nail.\u00a0 It looks and feels as if I’ve smashed each of them.\u00a0 I started using tea tree oil every day in hopes that it will salvage them.<\/p>\n
-My toenails are yellow.\u00a0 My pinky toenails are deep purple.<\/p>\n
-My eyelashes are really beginning to get thin, especially on the bottom.\u00a0 I have large gaps in between lashes and my eyebrows are very thin.\u00a0 I think this is probably harder than losing the hair on my head.\u00a0 I guess I never really thought about losing my eyelashes and eyebrows. \u00a0 It really makes me look sick.\u00a0 I hate that.\u00a0 Even when I feel great, I get asked if I’m, “feeling badly today?”<\/p>\n
-I assumed that when my Oncologist told me treatments would snowball, getting worse with each, that he meant it would take longer to recover from each one.\u00a0 They have, in fact, gotten much worse, but I’m always feeling better by the end of week one.\u00a0 It doesn’t take longer to get over, they are just much more intense during that first week.\u00a0 I always tell myself, “I can do anything for one week…I can do anything for one week.”\u00a0 MC is also my inspiration.\u00a0 I can’t imagine how open heart surgery must feel.\u00a0 She’s done it three times.\u00a0 If she can do that, I can certainly make it through this.<\/p>\n
-I’m gaining weight.\u00a0 It’s only a couple of pounds, but at least I’m not losing, right?<\/p>\n
-My port area has almost become a part of me.\u00a0 I thought the soreness would never end.\u00a0 I thought I’d never get used to the perfect metal circle protruding from my right chest, a constant reminder of my chemo, but it’s something I almost never think of anymore.<\/p>\n
-I often wonder if Mel or the girls ever look at me walking around our house with my bald head and secretly wish I had hair.\u00a0 I do so often.<\/p>\n
-I know this could be so much worse, and I’m thankful that I am able to get chemo.\u00a0 Some aren’t quite so lucky.\u00a0 So, while I secretly wish for hair, shed tears as I countdown until my last week 1, and just breathe and smile to make it through the day, I also think of how amazing this chapter in my life is, filled with overwhelming love.\u00a0 I am a lucky girl.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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