So, I have cancer…
Mel’s mom gave me a “Boob” bible. It tells me that I’m most likely in the “shock phase” of this journey. You know the one. “It can’t be me.” Denial, resentment at it’s finest. Maybe I’m there and don’t realize it, but what I am feeling is an overwhelming sense of awe. From the very moment I walked out of the exam room to meet Mel in the waiting room after my preliminary diagnosis, I’ve not felt alone in this journey. I am in shock. I’m in shock, amazement, bewilderment and awe of each and every single person who has sent me cards, emails, messages, texts, prayers and love. Each and every single one overwhelms me and makes me feel surrounded in prayer and love. With every word and kind thought, I feel empowered. I was in the shower this morning, after looking at my bruised left breast, not hating the very part of me that’s betrayed me, but feeling today more like I can do this. I know I can do this. This will not consume my life. This is apart of my life and I’m going with it!
So, I have cancer. So, I also have the most amazing friends and family and support that many never realize they have. If only everyone had an opportunity to realize how loved they truly are. How fortunate am I?
12 Comments
Jenny on August 12th, 2011
Wow Kerri- you are such an amazing person- I mean REALLY. Even though we have never met and only know each other as fellow heart moms, I am so inspired by you and your continuous upbeat positive attitude. You are in our thoughts and prayers!
Bree on August 12th, 2011
You are awesome!! We’re praying for you.
Misty on August 12th, 2011
Oh my amazing, strong and beautiful friend. I have tears in my eyes (as usual) and a smile on my face. Yes, you will beat this and yes, I will be there with you every step of the way! I love you!
YouDontKnowME on August 12th, 2011
I don’t know you, but read your blog once in a while, being a fellow BC survivor I can tell you to get the most information as you can and learn about this decease as much as you can.
Cancer is bad, but it will make you realize that the world is full of people that care for you and that you will make friends with people you never knew! God bless you and your family!
Jennifer - HLHS mommy to Colin on August 12th, 2011
You are amazing and strong. You can beat this, no problem.
Shannon Carter on August 12th, 2011
“I think I can, I think I can.”
It’s all about the attitude, and you have an amazing one. Praying for you!
Kathie on August 12th, 2011
Kerri, Just knowing that you have to go through this breaks my heart, but I know you are going to beat this. You will remain strong and you will do what you have to do with a smile on that pretty face. Love you and praying with every thought of you.
KATE on August 12th, 2011
you are the strongest person I know.. You WILL beat this… YOU WILL BEAT THIS!! I love you so very much, Kerri!
katie on August 13th, 2011
“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength” -Philippians 4:13
You already know that you can do hard things, you will beat this one too. Love and hugs to you sweet friend and praying for you!
Love,
Katie & Maddie
Amy on August 14th, 2011
Kerri-I love the “legs” comment in your Q and A post…I had a scare last month and they told me that my nodule did not have “legs” and I was like…”okay, so what are those??” We seriously need to talk to them about leaving you on that cold table with paper alone! I had an entire community praying but there was nothing to take away that fear and that alone feeling while waiting for the words to come out of their mouth. I have faith in you and too am impressed by your amazing power and strength. A dear friend of mine is 37 and trying to beat her second diagnosis of breast cancer…she is so tired of pink right now and has chosen purple as her color of choice! Be it pink lemonade, purple lemonade or teal lemonade… you drink it and you will be much more stronger for it!
Kathy O on August 16th, 2011
Kerri – You are such a strong young woman. I just had to write and tell you how much I admire your strength as you face this battle. I am thankful you have support and love to help you in person, but, please know, you have gained a prayer chain so strong with those of us that know you from your blog. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, fears, prayers and love.
Betsy on August 12th, 2011
You go girl! For those of you reading this who have not talked to this strong woman, this is exactly how she sounds in person!
Love you Kerri!