Chemo Journal Day 20
October 1-Day 20
We did it. Mel shaved my head last night! I must say the anticipation of my hair falling out was more of a bigger deal than it actually being gone! I think God’s way of preparing me for my bald head was to drive me nuts enough to want it gone! (Wink!) I wore a Carolina ball cap yesterday to MUSC and by the time we got back in the car, where I immediately took off my cap, my hair was a mess. I nearly had a bald spot and overall, it was so very thin. That, added to the flatness from wearing the cap created a hot mess. Not a pretty sight. I knew that I couldn’t wash it again. Every morning more and more hair fell out in the shower. It was time.
Mel started and MC seemed to be fine with it, as if she was used to her mom shaving her head. She has yet to even say much about it. McCanless was excited at first, then seemed a little sad as more and more fell onto the towel. I asked her to help her dad and immediately she smiled and grabbed the clippers. She buzzed a few rows. Afterward, it felt strange, but very liberating.
Someone today asked if I cried and many have asked if I’m “okay.” I’m absolutely fine! No tears, whatsoever. I’m great, actually. I met a few friends downtown this morning to buy a few Positively Pink t-shirts and I even went to the Hartsville Downtown Marketplace. (In a hat.) It wasn’t really planned, but ended up being a great way to debut my new look. I’m even heading to the Jazz Festival tonight downtown with Mel.
I was laughing at McCanless taking so many photos of me! My mini-paparazzi.
Baring it all-no make-up, no hair.
McDonald’s with the kiddos this morning.
On to Juice for a bit of Positively Pink shopping!
Today, has been an amazing day filled with so many people that I love, lots of laughter and fun!
18 Comments
JB on October 1st, 2011
You have a fabulous head! No hair needed!!! You are beautiful.
jennifer waldrop on October 1st, 2011
Kerri, you are amazing and beautiful! Your GIFT to write about your life is a GIFT to all of us who read your blog. God Bless YOU!
Angela on October 1st, 2011
Welcome to the club! You look WONDERFUL! Love your look – with and without the cute hat!
Big hug to you and to Mel. My guess is that him shaving your head will strengthen your bond like it has for me and Charles.
Believe people when they tell you that you are beautiful…you are!
I’m thinking of you lots,
Angela McCall
chaarlow on October 1st, 2011
You look beautiful!! I love it!!
Cathy on October 1st, 2011
A pretty face needs no hair!!!! Good for you!!!!!
tammy haarlow on October 1st, 2011
Kerri,
You are gorgeous……I think you could pull ANY look! Prayers for you from the Albuquerque Haarlows!
tammy haarlow on October 1st, 2011
That would be pull OFF any look!
Betsy on October 1st, 2011
You so look like Demi Moore in that pic! I really enjoyed spending the morning with you!
Lee on October 1st, 2011
I so agree w/ Betsy! You can give Demi a run for her money!! You look fantastic-bald or adorning a hat! Love you, my amazing friend.
Judy Brown on October 1st, 2011
Hey, I was right again. You ARE still beautiful with no hair. You are absolutely beautiful NO MATTER WHAT! Also, you have the ability to pass that beauty and love and courage to the rest of us. Thank you, Kerri. Much love from all of the Browns!
cici on October 1st, 2011
All you need is that smile and big pink feather earrings.
Nothing can bring you down now!
~Big Internet hug~
jane coulter on October 2nd, 2011
Hi Kerri-
I saw you yesterday at MUSC. After following your blog and speaking to you many months ago on the phone, it was inspiring to meet you. You are so beautiful, even with a hat on, with or without hair. We had just received the news that our baby boy’s last option is to be put on the transplant list after 5 months in the PCICU. I can’t believe I saw Mary Clare after getting that news. It was very hopeful. Thank you for your courage and inspiring words. It gives me strength. I will continue to pray for you and Mary Clare. -Jane Coulter
robin chaplin on October 2nd, 2011
Kerri,
i have never met you but I know Kate, she was my daughters student teacher at Satchel Ford. My daughter loved her and cried when she left. We became fb friends and I began following your blog. You are truly inspirational and have a God given talent for expressing yourself. You always seem to find peace in any situation that is handed to you. Your strength is amazing and your grace is incredible! Your family and friends are rallying for you and we will definitely keep you guys in our prayers!
Terri Woodham on October 2nd, 2011
Hey, love, you look amazing. See, I told you in high school you didn’t need make up!!!I’m so proud of you and what you have done for yourself as well as others. You will NEVER know the lives you have influenced, including me. Your strength and love just radiates daily-God walks with you daily and everyone can see it in you faith.
Can’t wait to see you and kiss that bald head and see your scar-
I love you soooo much!! Mom
Thanks Mel, for loving my daughter as you do.
Courtney on October 2nd, 2011
Seriously…I never knew you had such a perfect head! You look as gorgeous as ever!
Sissy - aka Sherrill on October 3rd, 2011
Cool!
Happy Heart on October 4th, 2011
Girl, you are beautiful!!!
Laura Dostert on October 1st, 2011
You look as fabulous as ever! Wish I could come downtown to buy some positively pink stuff but I am on bedrest!