Kisses
How is it that the joys and anguishes of life so often collide? When we suddenly smile and laugh through swollen eyes and falling tears. When a rainbow peeks out from behind a black tumultuous cloud. When we know that letting go of something so difficult to release is best and trust in what lies ahead.
This week has been a very difficult one for me. Pain, guilt, bitterness. Sadness from all that I am unable to do. Letting go of control.
All are tribulations we face daily. Not just me.
I’m forcing myself to focus on the glimmer of small kisses thrown my way throughout the day. Mary Clare snuggled with me in bed this morning and rubbed my shaven and very stubbly head, as if that’s the way it should be. A friend dropped off a warm Pumpkin Spice Latte early this chilly morning. Mel made a quick detour home to kiss me and tuck me in for a late morning nap. I just received a super exciting phone call about our family that sent sunshine straight through my soul!
This season may be filled with pain and tears, but aren’t they all? I guess as long as we search for and hold onto those small kisses, we truly appreciate all that we are blessed with.
11 Comments
Carrie on October 6th, 2011
and all God’s children said Amen
Rebecca on October 6th, 2011
Couldn’t agree more…love you, friend.
Terri Woodham on October 6th, 2011
I’ve never wanted time to pass so quickly-I want the day, weeks, months to pass as quickly as they may, so you will wake up one day and not to think of this saddness or pain of not being “Mommie”as you have always been. Just keep thinking of tomorrow. McCanless and Mary Clare and even a kiss from Mel can make the pain go away, even if for a brief moment, cuddle long and as often as you can. Those two love that “cuddle” spot!
I love you so much, my brave love, MOM
Aunt Liz & uncle Robert on October 6th, 2011
We love you Kerri 😉
Betsy on October 6th, 2011
Oh Kerri! How my heart aches for you! Keep chanting to yourself “this is temporary, this is temporary, this is temporary.” I hope that the sun shines through for you very very soon, my dear friend.
chaarlow on October 6th, 2011
We love you Ker!!
Judy and Walter Brown on October 6th, 2011
When I read this blog, I thought: “Maybe that is what MC was feeling/thinking when she had her surgeries”. You two have an unbelievable bond – not one you would have chosen, but one you both have been blessed with! Sending so much love and so many prayers for you and all of your loved ones.
KATE on October 6th, 2011
i love you and i am so very proud of you.
KATE on October 8th, 2011
i can’t wait for the potato sacks race!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU!
Sally on October 10th, 2011
I was drawn to your website from a friend (Courtney Barrett Griffith), and after I read your article in this month’s She magazine…I just want you to know that you make me want to be a better mother to my lil’ girl. She is 3 1/2 and so bright and loving, just as your girls are. You are such a strong mother and a strong woman. Your faith is so much greater than mine, and I pray for your and your family daily now. Continue the fight because our God is an awesome God & He can do AWESOME THINGS!!
Angela McCall on October 6th, 2011
Hi Kerri,
I’m glad you posted. And I’m glad you are “keeping it real” and describing things the way they are…which is just plain tough.
I love the “small kisses” metaphor….that’s really a nice way to say it.
Just another day or two and you’ll be past the yuckiest part hopefully.
So glad you got some exciting news, too!
Sending you a big hug and lots of love,
Angela